Social Goings On

Switchbacks Ahead! A Kinky Anniversary.

As those of you who perv my Instagram feed have seen, it is getting kinky in The Hovel.

Triskel

I have a long history of being both a twisted bitch AND a veritable hermit.  This used to present a few social problems, as you might well imagine.  Then, I had a relationship go pear shaped that caused me to drop any form of kink entirely of over a decade, when it had previously been a very important part of my life.

Fast forward 10+ years and here I am hanging out on Fetlife.  When first putting together my profile, I had the Worries.  What if all the people are just creepers?  What if people are mean?  What if no one wants to be my friend?  What if I am not kinky ENOUGH?  And so forth.  When I hit the publish button, I felt more vulnerable than ANY time I have written anything on my personal blogs–and I frequently write some weird drivel.

Strangely enough, here I am coming up on my first full year of being on the website and I have been having a ball.  I have met many new people.  Some, I really want to get to know better.  Some, I have formed close acquaintances with.  Some, I have troll-hammered so hard I hope they felt my boot through the computer screen.  I go out to dinners and game nights and coffee dates.  It is brilliant to simply be around people who know what you’re talking about when you say “I am just not sure about figging.”

A full Xanax prescription, some bravery, and a bit of vulnerability a year ago has given me a circle of friends in a state I never thought I would have any in.  I was feeling mighty lonely four years ago, and that has been significantly lessened this past year.  Missouri was getting me down, man.  The people here were Not My Kind.  It is refreshing to know I just did not know where to look.

Sacco acknowledges it, yet does not fully understand it.  He and I are the epitome of “your kink is not my kink” and yet we still get on like chocolate and a fine red wine.  He is happy that I am happy and making new friends.  He is happy enough to let me be myself, even when that woman scares him just a little.

So happy anniversary, little social profile!  You have given me more than I ever expected.

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